today is my mums birthday, the time when we're meant to remember her, the time where we are mean't to shed tears over her. Today was one of the hardest days of my life, seeing everyone in my family cry, standing around her grave in the rain with my sister and dad, the only people we have left crying, praying for her to come back. But thats not possible. I just wish we were in spain, everything is so much easier there and partying is the answer for everything:/.