I feel as if you are embarrassed that you are with me:(.

I dunno why but I am sooo happy. Everything is kind of perfect! I have everyone I need and have got rid off them horrible braces!! haha. I is soooooooo happy.

I want to move away, somewhere no one knows me. I fucking hate it here. I want my mummy home:(

Me:)

I want you here with me. I want you here, to tell me all these stupid rummors that are getting to my head when I am alone aren't true. I want you to tell me she is lying and he has never done anything like that to me before and it never will. I just want to know for sure it's not true without doubting it all the fucking time then ending up being blunt to him because I don't mean any off it, I just can't help my thoughts. I just want to be home with you, where ever that is. My life is so fucked up, I hate it so much. I miss you:(

I can't wait to move away. I hate it here. Haddington is terrible. It is too small, everyone knows everything about eachother. Everyone tries to be different but it just so happens they are all the same. I have lost so many people it is unreal. Lost so many people that I would love sooo much to get back, but fuck it. Everything happens for a reason. God bless. To be honest, With my mum gone, I have realized who actually stuck to their word and who actually was just mind fucks. I've not just lost her, I have lost everything and everyone. But I am sitting thinking about this, when I am older if I do not want any of these people to be in my life, they don't have to be. I decide. I only have to put up with them for 2-3 years. Then me and Jack can fuck off and move somewhere better than this shit hole. I wish I had some guidance but all I have is a fucked up life.