This is so tiring. I really do not need this, not now. I wish everyone would just leave me be, I just want to be alone or at least happy even though I know I can never be.. ever again. Why did this have to happen to me? Out of everyone, why me? I just can't handle this anymore. It is getting too much again. Too much for me to handle. It hurts to even have to hold back tears anymore, I am so weak.

You always put in sly wee comments about loads of boys, usually boys I don't even talk to. Just remember what you did, please. I have a lot I could bring up and you would be speachless.

I am so fucking gutted that I done what I did, hopefully by the next time I see you, you have forgotten that I done that.

well, I fuck that up for myself so fast. I am such an arsehole when I am drunk, the annoying thing is it really hurts. Why would you like me back anyway? I am just the girl who's mum killed herself.

I want you. I cannot get over how much I miss you. I just want to smell your scent and press my body up against you once more. I wish you could read this but you can't even do that. Why the fuck am I still here?