This is so tiring. I really do not need this, not now. I wish everyone would just leave me be, I just want to be alone or at least happy even though I know I can never be.. ever again. Why did this have to happen to me? Out of everyone, why me? I just can't handle this anymore. It is getting too much again. Too much for me to handle. It hurts to even have to hold back tears anymore, I am so weak.