I can't wait to move away. I hate it here. Haddington is terrible. It is too small, everyone knows everything about eachother. Everyone tries to be different but it just so happens they are all the same. I have lost so many people it is unreal. Lost so many people that I would love sooo much to get back, but fuck it. Everything happens for a reason. God bless. To be honest, With my mum gone, I have realized who actually stuck to their word and who actually was just mind fucks. I've not just lost her, I have lost everything and everyone. But I am sitting thinking about this, when I am older if I do not want any of these people to be in my life, they don't have to be. I decide. I only have to put up with them for 2-3 years. Then me and Jack can fuck off and move somewhere better than this shit hole. I wish I had some guidance but all I have is a fucked up life.